Bigger than Big

Today is Friday, October 16th, 2026. Lunch was sloppy joe with pasta salad, cake, and bread. Yesterday marked one year of these charges. Yesterday I talked about how I felt. Today I want to talk about what created my downfall. It was caused by the psychological disease grandiosity. This disease affects your perception of reality. You no longer live with a realistic attitude towards reaching the goals you have planned for yourself. You begin to think everything is easy and that everyone is going to respond the way I want them to, and that I'm the center of the universe. Grandiosity will cause you to overestimate your skills and abilities and to underestimate the obstacles and tasks you face. The opposite of this is a person that is down to earth. Meaning that all their ideas and plans are rooted in reality. Grandiose people feel they are larger than life. We all display levels of this behavior, but usually we check ourselves. I don't think it was just my grandiose self that led to my downfall. I think fear had a part to play, and as I have said before, I was struggling with imposter syndrome. All these mental health illnesses had me living in a state of delusion. I recommend everyone read Laws of Human Nature by Robert Greene, so you can see what you may be under the influence of. Unfortunately, I didn't understand my mindset before I caught this case. However, now I do, and now I understand how important mental health is. Understanding the roots of your thoughts is just as important as checking your blood pressure. If you are struggling mentally, my advice is to see a psychiatrist. Drop the fear of being judged and go see what they have to say. They might really help you connect the dots on why you react certain ways to certain things. Now for my people in the field. I need you to slowly remove yourself while staying dangerous, of course. The streets are dead. If possible, move to a different state and start a new life. We owe ourselves that. Love is Love. The trap is called that for a reason, and these rats and the government is not playing fair. Save yourself by Moving Smart and Staying Free.